there will be a day.....

this has been a very emotional week for me. a lot of it has carried over from last week. with the bombings in Boston to losing a patient that I loved dearly to issues that Clay and I have been faced with. it seems like every time I turn around someone is suffering. or I'm watching a family struggle to hold on to their loved one. there just seems like there is so much hurt in our world today.

and with all this going on I've found myself questioning what in the world I have done bringing my boys into this place. please don't get me wrong, I am SO blessed to have them in my life and to get the chance to be their mother, I wouldn't trade that for anything in this world. but I am scared for them. my hearts aches for the world that they will grow up in. there have been so many times here lately that I just want to keep my little family in a bubble and keep them away from all of this, but that's not the way life works. and it's definitely not how the Lord wants us to live.

if I've learned anything through these last several days it's to cling to the Lord and His truth and to not take one single second for granted. I've loved on my boys a lot more since I watched my patients mother loose her daughter. I can't for one minute imagine the hurt and heartache she must be going through. it's one of the more difficult parts of my job.

on my way into work last night I was listening to Pandora and Jeremy Camp's song There Will Be a Day came on and I just sobbed all the way through it. there is so much truth to the words in this song. I cling to the Lords' truth that "in this world you will have trouble. but take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33. the Lord said this life would never be an easy one and that we would face trials and suffering of all kinds, but we can't sit around and worry our life away. that means the devil wins. and I'm determined not to let him steal my joy!

Jeremy Camp: There Will Be A Day

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have

But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that tries to grab

The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth

That we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings

That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears

No more pain, and no more fears

There will be a day when the burdens of this place

Will be no more, we'll see Jesus face to face

But until that day, we'll hold on to you always

I know the journey seems so long

You feel you're walking on your own

But there has never been a step

Where you've walked out all alone

Troubled soul don't lose your heart

Cause joy and peace he brings

And the beauty that's in store

Outweighs the hurt of life's sting

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings

That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears

No more pain, and no more fears

There will be a day when the burdens of this place

Will be no more, we'll see Jesus face to face

But until that day, we'll hold on to you always

I can't wait until that day where the very one

I've lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I've faced

To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery

O, this is why, this is why I sing

There will be a day with no more tears

No more pain, and no more fears

There will be a day when the burdens of this place

Will be no more, we'll see Jesus face to face