Our Journey - Part One

***i must admit that this post has taken me several days to write out and i will probably break it up into parts. i apologize in advance for the length so bare with me.***

i have contemplated many times whether or not to talk about this part of my life with the rest of the world. not to say that i am at all ashamed or embarrassed, but that this part of my life is very personal and sometimes difficult to talk about. so with that said i guess i will start from the beginning. my husband (clay) and i were married in june 2006. for those of you that do not know our story, clay and i have known each other since we were 5 years old. we went to the same school, lived less than a mile from one another, but we never dated (just friends). certain circumstances brought us together during my junior year of college. looking back it's funny to realize that someone you saw everyday during your elementary and high school days turned out to be the person God had in store for you and you never even knew it at the time. anyway, back to the story... in october of 2006 clay and i decided that we wanted to start a family. at the time he was 25 and i was 24. i went and had a check up with my ob/gyn. she told me everything looked great and to let her know "when i got a bun in the oven!"...those were her exact words!! when summer came around i started getting a little worried. by this time i was beginning to think something might be wrong. i remembered during my last doctors appointment that my doctor said she likes to give couples our age at least one year to try on our own and then we would look at other options. i will say looking back now i understand why we did not get pregnant during that time. clay had decided to sell his business and go back to school and that was something we had prayed very hard about and really sought out God's will. not to mention it would have been hard to care for a child on just one income. but i won't lie and say that during that time i did not question God or wonder why this was happening to us. we were beginning to see many couples our age getting pregnant, getting the questions at all the family gatherings asking "when are ya'll going to start trying"..."aren't ya'll ready for kids"..."it's your turn now." and it just seemed like we were the only ones not pregnant. so when october of 2007 came along we were back at the doctor listening to all of our options and after much prayer and consideration clay and i decided to start infertility treatments.